Tag: change
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Alcohol: The Easy Way Out
I first turned to alcohol because I liked the way it made me feel. With booze in my belly, I could be the cool and confident social butterfly I wanted to be. After a few more drinks, blackout would set in, and I would be numbed from all emotions. All the pain from my past,…
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A Moment of Lucidity- Diary Entry from July 2019
I stumbled across an old diary entry of mine from July 2019. It’s shocking to go back and read old musings concerning my drinking, even more shocking that back in 2016 (only MONTHS after having my first drink) that I started to question if I was an alcoholic. News flash: I was. Here, I struggle…
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Freedom of Choice
A year ago, my life looked very different. I was sick and unhappy. I didn’t realize how sick I was at the time, nor did I fully understand what was causing me to feel miserable. It wasn’t until I lost so many things that were important to me, including respect for myself, that I realized…
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Sweeping the Floors
It was a Tuesday night AA meeting, not one I usually went to. However, my schedule was different that day, and I needed a meeting. So I went. It was a commitment meeting, the kind where outside chapters come in to provide fresh perspectives and stories. The first guy to step up to the podium…